email rejection and smarty pants revisited

well, i told water boy that i didn't see us dating. and yes...i did it over email. gutless and heartless, i know! and i felt even more so when he response was along the lines of "that's a shame because i really thought we were developing a rapport." i hope that rejecting these guys is not adding up in some pool of bad karma, just waiting for me to trip and fall into it. i feel terrible; does that make it not count against me?

i meet up with smarty pants again, and he does seem to fit his nickname well. discussions of camus are second nature to him, sheesh. sometimes i think he's not a show-off, but other times i think he's a bit up his own ass in pretention. he makes acronymic references that are obscure, forcing me to ask for clarification. at this point i feel stupid, and no one likes to feel stupid. i fear i'm walking into another situation of admiring his mind, getting along with him well, all the while being unsure of how physically attracted to him i am.

karma, please don't get me back!